I pray for you on a daily
because I’ve noticed that
you have not been yourself lately.
You have been falling
for someone else
and as much as it hurts,
if that makes you happy
I’ll fulfill my happiness
somewhere else.
You don’t know that
I pray for you
every night, and it shows,
No more FaceTime calls
and we’re no longer boo’d
up on the phone.
I already know.
that someone else has your attention,
and as much as you deny it,
I keep this feeling burning
inside of me because
I just want to see you truly happy.
I am not going to lie
this shit hurts,
But I pray to God one day you
will not regret this as a mistake.
I pray that God makes you see
my true colors instead.
That my red is how madly in love
I want to be with you.
That my blue is how sad I get
when I’m not near you,
And that my yellow is how
much joy, and comfort
I feel around you.
But you won’t.
I pray that you see,
at least one day,
how nothing from my
heart meant malice,
that the words I spoke
to you were genuine.
And that my love for you
Is all that ever transpired.
I will never stop praying for you,
Because I know God
will always protect you
like I could’ve,
He will always guide you,
and never neglect you
like I should’ve,
And he will definitely fulfill
the fire in you because I know
I wasn’t enough for you,
I am sorry for that.
I will, however one day, stop
praying for you to love me,
And I pray that day comes soon,
Because If we’re being honest,
that’s just wishful thinking.
05.04.19