Again

I truly, cold heartedly believe

That you’re no longer for me,

And that our ties are no longer

The muse of my loose ends

That catches in flames

Every time I see you analyzing her.

I am deceived by the eyes of the naive,

You got tricks up your sleeve,

and I treat them over,

and over again in disbelief .

I call myself dumb until I quit.

I am done, that’s it.

I quit.

Yet,

when I feel like I’m done,

I Repeatedly fall

for you again deeper

than I have ever before,

until my angers turns

into turmoil.

This fatal attraction runs down

Deep in my veins like

cutting edge with a switchblade.

You played the game,

and I played again.

I stayed, and paid

then got betrayed .

My Heart is palpitating

while I’m trying to

Persuade your stay,

Just for you

to degrade my integrity,

My honesty, my beauty.

And my pain

for self esteem,

and

In Defense I finally leave

Just to come back again.

06.01.19