Water Me

I want to grow in love

with someone.

I don’t want to fall and

let my heart shatter again,

like broken glass after

you dropped it again.

I don’t want to

be placed in the bag

and take that walk

with you to the trash

just so you could

go back and replace me

for a more perfect glass.

I am tired of falling.

Is a never ending cycle

that keeps cycling,

even though

I want it so badly

to stop.

I am tired of wishing.

Tired of wishing to receive

the same love that I give

unconditionally,

passionately,

consistently.

Everything is all one sided.

All I ask is for the same

energy to be given,

just as much as u say

you’ll give it

but I never see it,

So I don’t get it.

I am bruised from falling,

As to why I hate falling in love .

your

“I love you’s”

don’t even sound like

words anymore.

I am tired of hurting,

tired of healing,

and I am sick and tired

of repeating.

I am fucking fed up,

with miscommunication,

false allegations

I’m tired of the lack of trust.

I am tired of the investigating

and the

“ I’m so tired of you lately

mane you tripping”

But am I really?

I don’t want to fall in love.

I want to grow in love,

I want to plant seeds as

we make love and water

them with the fluids

rushing from our love.

I want to watch those seeds

grow endlessly

to where we can’t see them anymore.

I want to just grow in love.

06.27.19